On the very edge


Some days are better than others, I expected each one to me slightly better than the last – it doesn’t work like that!

Psa 55:4-7  My heart is in anguish within me; the terrors of death assail me.  Fear and trembling have beset me; horror has overwhelmed me.  I said, “Oh, that I had the wings of a dove! I would fly away and be at rest— I would flee far away and stay in the desert; I would hurry to my place of shelter, far from the tempest and storm.”

It is the despair and loss of hope of recovery that become unbearable, but I am surrounded by love and encouragement – such a painful paradox! How could a day of such light and joy bring such pain?

Psa 88:1-18   O LORD, the God who saves me, day and night I cry out before you. May my prayer come before you; turn your ear to my cry.  For my soul is full of trouble and my life draws near the grave.   I am counted among those who go down to the pit; I am like a man without strength.   I am set apart with the dead, like the slain who lie in the grave, whom you remember no more, who are cut off from your care.  You have put me in the lowest pit, in the darkest depths.  Your wrath lies heavily upon me; you have overwhelmed me with all your waves. ….  I cry to you for help, O LORD; in the morning my prayer comes before you.   Why, O LORD, do you reject me and hide your face from me?  ….  the darkness is my closest friend!

About David Allsopp

Married, 4 children, Christian, Head of IT
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